on my serious side... (a guest post from kolleen harrison)

June 11, 2010liz lamoreux

while we are soaking up the wonder of a newborn in the house, a few of my blogging friends are sharing some guests posts...enjoy today's personal story from kolleen harrison.

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kolleen and her son chandler

last weekend i woke up early, piled 3 of my 4 kids into the car and drove over to the beach for the weekend. my hubby was already there since he had a meeting the day prior.

as i was driving...i kept looking in my rear view mirror checking on my kids (as a mom tends to do, i think! right moms?).

each time i would do this, my sweet Chandler would be
smiling to himself,
talking a bit to himself,
laughing a little.

it made me stop and think...
i realize the fact that he has autism would seem like a curse to many.
and trust me at times it can be VERY difficult.
but that day.
that particular day,
as i was driving and watching him i had to stop and ask myself this...
for a second i wondered...

maybe the "non- awareness" actually is a blessing...
maybe the not knowing the evils and sadness that are in our world can be a good thing??"

i don't know...

i know Chandler has many struggles but quite honestly he doesn't really know that.
i know by society's standards "he is different"...but quite honestly he doesn't really know that either.
what i feel he does know is this...
he is very loved by his family,
his dad is his constant and sometimes he wishes i would have a baby (and it would be a boy) so he wouldn't be so outnumbered! (LOTS of women in this household!!!)

i am certainly not trying to "make light" of the fact that this precious boy was diagnosed at age 2 1/2 with autism...

i am simply trying to find the blessing in it...the positive.

thank you for listening...

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kolleen harrison is a mama to 4 crazy kiddlies and wife to one prince charming.