reflecting on my 2019 word

Happy New Year to you! I hope this year is already unfolding with some ease, some joy, some time to just breathe. And if not, that you'll have moments full of these things throughout the month.

I want to share a bit about my 2019 word before I set it down. Yes was my word 2019. A year ago, I thought it would be a year of growing my business. Hosting more retreats. Teaching more in-person workshops. Saying yes to a few dreams.

Instead, things began to turn upside down in late January, and as a family, we had a pretty tough and at times heartbreaking winter and spring. As a result, I started saying yes to different things. To showing up. To healing trauma (and calling it trauma). To boundaries. To saying no. To rest. To noticing the smallest of miracles even on days that felt really really hard.

Yes became like a pinky swear with myself: You. Will. Get. Through. This.

My business had to take a backseat to parenting and healing. It may not have looked like it from the outside, but it all took its toll. And a piece that is hard to talk about is how financially last year was a rough one. I’m hoping business continues to pick up and that there is some growth or even just getting back to where things were. My little family needs that. I need it. And feeling the joy of all the word of the year orders that come in this time of year feels like a beautiful way to hold hands with “yes” and trust that this hard, quiet, healing year has created a foundation for what’s next. 

Thank you for being part of that.

I had my last therapy session of the year on Monday, and I was thinking about how the healing I’ve done stretches forward toward what is to come but also stretches back toward those who came before me. 

And as I turn toward this new year, I want to say yes to choosing that healing and that love and that belief in myself.

Thank you for being beside me as I've walked through this past year. I will share more stories as I keep moving through them and understanding more about them. The toughness of this last year is a big reason why I started Everyday Tiny Miracles. Gathering up the littlest of joys, delights, truths, stories, miracles was a big way I got through it all.